Farewell KPMG!

Okay, I shall start from last Friday, August 15th, which was the last day of my attachment in KPMG! We (Leslie and friends) intended to take pictures of the company, office and people there, but in the end we all backed out in a hurry. Lol!

So yea, we all went there happily for our last day, so excited and all. Oh, and we had lunch at a Vietnamese restaurant. 1 chicken soup noodle was like almost 10 bucks! Nothing special. Not worth my money! T-T But okay la, it's still quite a big bowl.

So yea, after lunch, we came back office and prepared to leave. We thanked both OICs and apologized for our incompetence (okay, too strong of a word but similar to that xD). Fortunately, Mr.VG was quite forgiving in the end and all ended well. So Leslie and MX went to say goodbye to their java side, while Heechai and me went to say goodbye and thanked our 2 supervisors. Wah, I tell you, after we did that, we were like feeling kinda sad about leaving the office. So after that, we quickly grabbed our stuff, and together with Leslie and MX, fled the office. On our way to the office doors we just walked past quickly and said goodbye to those who were bidding us farewell. I stole a last glance at my "angel" before chionging out. I didn't say goodbye to her, she didn't as well. And it might as well be good to just end it this way.

Lol. If we stayed any longer, I'm afraid we might cry. Rofl! So we proceeded to do our clearance at ITS (IT Support Department). And guess who we saw there? The chio bu from HR called Kimberly! W00tz! There to see us and complete our clearance. (Like sending us off to our final journey) Haha. All went well, except I had to photocopy some forms of mine. I didn't know how to use the photocopy machine after 3 months of working in KPMG! LOL! Cuz it looks kinda complicated but it's actually quite easy after I knew how. So yea, MX helped me with one, and I did the rest myself.

Then after we are all done we left the building! Leslie and Heechai were like so happy that they saw Kimberly for the last time lor. Lol! Okay la, I was happy too, but it would be better if it was my "angel". Oh well, so after we left the building, we talked crap to lighten our moods.

For me, I was feeling the exact similar feelings I felt back when I was in Beijing, that very same morning where I left for the airport to go back to Singapore. Yea, it was that kind of feeling. On my way to the MRT, I looked back at the building I worked in, looked up into the sky and saw the skyscrapers towering above me. Even though my 3 months in KPMG was not really that superb, but I still felt attached to it after 3 months of life there. Haha, I was thinking, oh, next monday morning and I wake up. Would I dress up in my formal outfit and go to work subconsciously without knowing it? Rofl! But luckily, that did not happen. xD

Here's something that Ms.Yarny wrote to me that made me leave KPMG more towards the happy side.

[15:07] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: hi there
[15:07] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: what's the joy abt
[15:07] Gilman : presentation over
[15:07] Gilman : im free tomorrow
[15:07] Gilman : >.<
[15:14] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: :)
[15:17] Gilman : going to miss the cute lady here
[15:18] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: well....
[15:18] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: well....
[15:18] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: umm....
[15:18] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: umm...
[15:18] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: the path u r walking now.. u see one beautiful & cute flower on the side..
[15:19] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: but u hv to move on.. but u will hv chance to see more beautiful & cute flowers along the way.. u might even hv the opportunity to pluck one of them...
[15:19] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: some of the beauty of the flowers need no eye to see but ur heart to appreciate...
[15:19] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: so MOVE ON ....
[15:19] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: (F) (F) (F)
[15:20] Gilman : oh wow!
[15:20] Gilman : thanks ms yarny

So yea, thanks Ms.Yarny! It was really inspirational. :D

As for my "angel", "Sorry, my beautiful & cute flower, it's been nice admiring you. You have made my days more beautiful during this path. However, it's time for me to move on with my journey. Farewell."

Wa.... It's just surreal, so much has happened this year. From end of year 2, to FYPJ in school lab, to Beijing for 2 months (woah), then back to Singapore KPMG for 3 months! I have really learned a lot. So much more than I could have ever learned. For that, I'm grateful. All that has come to an end, now it's my well-deserved break.
Here are some preview from my life in KPMG!

Outside office, at the 31st floor lobby.
1st floor of main lobby! 2 statues :p
This is the basketball court of the Children's home during Make A Difference Day event.
This is the isolation room for naughty kids which Heechai,
Li zi and me was assigned to re-paint.
The Children's home.

Painted 1st layer of the room.
Painted final layer of the room. Yes, light green.
This little boy and me playing basketball. Look at his
face expression! Haha!
At Girls' and Women's Home. Painting banner competition.
That red-circled girl was the "angel" i was talking about.
A closer back-view of her.
Smiley faces from "Ghost in the Shell" anime.
(okay, it's for censoring faces)
I wish to put up more but meh. There's too many! :P I'll
take a break here, and update my blog soon enough!
Laters. :)

Insomnia and weird dreams?

Waaa... I'm so tired. Yesterday night went home to chill. Played a bit of Drift City(online racing game), vroom vroom! *Sigh* There's no good MMORPGs available to play currently, it's depressing. Oh well, at least I still enjoyed some fast drifting cars.. virtually that is. Anyone wanna play with me Drift City? :D

Then I went to bed at around 11+, I told myself I have to sleep early, I needed my beauty sleep.. My eye bags are getting more & more horrible. I still remember when I was younger, I can sleep at 4, 5AM like that and still feel energetic. I think I'm old now.. Lol! Does that mean time is running out for me? Meh.. I need a girlfriend.. and FAST! Dx

Anyway, I went to bed at around 11+ and I couldn't sleep. I kept flipping on my bed for a very long time but I was still awake. I took a look at the time at it was almost 1AM. Wtfux? I think my insomnia might be coming back. Then I prayed to God to let me sleep, and soon I was asleep. Horray!

But then I didn't slept well last night. I remembered that not long after I was asleep, I began dreaming. Lol. And no, I seldom have dreams in my sleep. It was weird. I can barely remember what happened.. BUT I can vividly remember it was something about 2 pairs of couples. I was one of the guys. There were some weird weird obstacles and the 2 group of couples had some interaction in the process(not dirty ones mind you). In the end, both pair of couples made it. BUT, they switched partners! My girl went and walked away with the other guy and the other girl came to me, holding my hand. (appears that during the event they had a change of hearts) But it felt like I really liked this other girl too and was happy. (Eh, both girls quite chio wor! 1 ish sexay type, 1 ish JF type. The JF type came to me :3 Just that I can't remember their faces! Sadded)

THEN I woke up! Lol. I was like, "wtfux was that?" *facepalm* So what the hell was that dream supposed to mean?! .__.

Feeling kinda moody and very tired today. Forced myself to come to work. I feel like sleeping again. Maybe I can have a more pleasant dream this time? Perhaps...

Hanging on to what little hope there is..

What day is it today again? Oh yes, it's Monday. The first day of the last week of attachment! Horray! I was so looking forward to it.

But why do I still feel a little hesitant on leaving?..

*Sigh* I feel empty somehow, like a part of me is missing and I can't call it back, not until it finds what it wants. It's searching for something, I know it is, but it doesn't seem to know where it's heading or what it's searching for. *Confused*

I don't want to think anymore for today. It's taking a toll on me. Mentally and physically.. I'm tired and I wish there was....

"Happy" National Day to Singapore!

Yep. Singapore turns 43 today! Um.. I meant yesterday *looks at time*. Oh and yay, Beijing Olympic 2008. Lol. What's with all that hype.. jeez. It irks me, seriously. It's just Beijing, I've been there, saw it, and came back. Woohoo! *insert sarcasm*

Okay, back to the topic. Today felt just like any other Saturday. I didn't feel like going out, although there were activities and events lined up for me. But Saturdays were strictly my rest day from the tiring weekdays. Rah! TIRED!

So yea, I rejected ALL offers and just lazed around at home as usual, doing almost nothing the whole day except ponder in deep thoughts. Yes. I have a lot to think about recently. It's disturbing me.

It's days like these when I'm not occupied with stuff to do that I tend to think a lot. Many random thoughts.. pondering about the meaning of love and life. Sweet Nostalgia. Meh.. I don't even know where to begin. It's just so complicated. *Sigh* I wish I was still young like my brother, so innocent, oblivious to this cruel world and it's surroundings and simple-minded. Argh! *facepalm*

Right.. I still have my IPP report to do. Tomorrow it shall be done, hopefully. >.>
Oh and congrats to Ying Hao, my classmate, on becoming attached with his beloved. *envy*
I wonder when my turn will come. *Sigh* To be honest, I'm scared.. afraid.. and so alone, like falling deep into this never-ending pit, no one to stop my fall or pull me out. God, someone save me. Sometimes I just wish... I had a beautiful and understanding female companion, to share my happiness and burdens with. Nothing else would matter then. Nothing wrong with dreaming yea? Right. I'll keep on dreaming and hope for that day. I will. .____.

"There is melancholy in the wind.. and sorrow in the grass" - Charles Kuralt

I stumbled upon this quote and fell in love with it that instance. It's beautiful. Don't ya think so? (Alright, you'd probably think I'm a saddist right now. Lol)

"Until time and times pass away..."

And this second quote is from the story of "The Druid Knight". I just finished reading it, kept my boredom in check for a while. Not bad IMO.

I placed both those 2 melancholic quotes into my blog banner, if you haven't noticed them yet... And the background image is from the anime that I just finished watching recently. It's called Elfen Lied. I've heard a lot about how good it was before I watched it so I decided I can't miss it too. Lol. Solid story in 13 episodes.

It was unlike anything I've seen before, kinda reminds me of "The Dark Knight", surreal. Lol. Elfen Lied is a relatively bloody, gory and sadistic anime (some nudity included) but don't let that put/fool you off. It actually tells and shows you so much about love, compassion, social alienation, identity, animal cruelty, revenge, child abuse, jealousy and the value of humanity. It really sets you thinking like, "Wow.. and here I am, sitting down in my chair? What exactly am I doing?!" Haha, just an example. And the ending of Elfen Lied.. was just.. touching. Well, all I can say is that it left me speechless, made my heart ‹/3 and thinking again. I cried at.. episode 12/13. *no spoilers revealed* :P

Elfen Lied Trailer

"ADV Films said the series was one of their bestselling and "most notorious" releases of 2005." - quoted from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Elfen_Lied.

So that concludes my blog post. I have a feeling I wrote too much. And to whoever who may have stumbled upon my blog might have already given up reading my chunk of rants.. er.. I meant words! Haha! Be sure to leave a note/tag me if you read this. It'll cheer me up, serious! :P

Phew.. definitely felt better after writing. Until time and times pass away...

Wait. "Time and times pass away" might be a little too long till my next post. I'll leave it at.. Till next time! :D

Woohoo!

Rah! I see so many people writing blogs, I'm tempted to make one myself. Ha! Although I know it won't last long due to my short attention span, but heck, it'll take away some of my boredom (and burdens). I doubt anyone would read my crap anyway. So yea, here comes my rants and what not. >:D

Unleash thy inner-self!