Today went to take part in CCIS(celebrate christmas in singapore) with eddie, gyeon and ms yarny as a volunteer in Paragon at orchard road. rah!! i stand there from 6.30 till 11pm without resting.. my legs breaking T-T

Then stand there give out booklets and watch the performances.. loved the one where there were a group of cute little japanese kids singing japanese christmas carols. lulz. another one i liked was the performance done by Australian band, "Angels Are Architects".. here's their myspace profile that I found :0 http://www.myspace.com/angelsarearchitects

After finishing my duties at 11pm, i went for a walk around orchard road.. hmm.. so nice neh.. saw so many couples.. make me envious.. D:
Then take train home, a bit pissed off cuz no seats, stand all the way again T-T

Meh........ i NEED a girlfriend.

Been watching this anime series, Soul Eater, for the past few days. It's a very good show to pass time, quite similar to Bleach. lol. Loved the fight scenes, especially the one I watched today in episode 28, Mifune the sword saint vs Black Star. Did I mention I have a fetish for swords? Hmm...

Epi 28, Black Star vs Mifune fight scene

Yesterday was the last day of school before term break. It was the most unepic lesson I ever had. Basically, come to school, for 2 hours of practical, to rot.

Okay, first was presenting assignment(a Perl program that I did to find DNA's reading frames & ORF information), I presented first, teacher said need to make some changes, I did that. Then there was nothing else to do. He went about looking at other people's assignments which was pretty much the same since everyone got a copy of the same codes... LOL, and everyone had to make changes due to some function mistake. And since I already done my changes, I tried doing my Bioperl assignment but was not really fruitful. lol. Then it was over, 2 hours just like that. The rest gave up on making changes to the assignment except for Bikai, where she kept bugging me on how to do. I told her the logic, she dont know. Then I told her the pseudo codes, she still dont know. I cant be spoonfeeding her all the time, so I left her to figure it out herself and I went home. o.o

Oh well, at least yanqi got give us hard candy as xmas and new year present lol. Felt quite surprised she did that really. Liked it very much.

And so I went home to rot for the entire afternoon, took a little nap. Then went back to school at 5.30pm to meet ms yarny, so she can give me a lift to her house to have dinner. lol. If I took MRT all the way to her house it would take more than an hour! and I dont want that .____.

When I was walking to school, I saw Justin, so I asked him why he was still in school, etc etc. He told me Bikai stayed in school to make changes to the assignment till 3pm+ but to no avail. lol. So after that I just continued to school to meet ms yarny.

So on the way to ms yarny house in her car, we talked about some stuff that happened during the past 2 weeks. And it so happened that I talked about my assignment, and about BIKAI! So ms yarny gave me some advices and in the end, while I was using her laptop, I sent codes to find ORF seq and psuedo codes to translate ORF seq to Bikai, as a final attempt to help her with the assignment. And she finally did it.

OH YOU SO LUCKY BIKAI. MUST REALLY THANK MS YARNY. dont thank me. :P

Ya, so after dinner, some sharing and some prayers which ended around 11pm. Eddie, ms yarny and me went to CWP(causeway point) to meet judy to watch "The Day The Earth Stood Still" together :D
I thought the show was pretty nice, I think we all agreed, but tickets were a bit too expensive though. 10 bucks D:

So what's it about? Hmm.. if I were to refer it to an anime, it would be something similar to GURREN LAGANN!! minus the big robot fighting, and all the "I WILL MAKE THE IMPOSSIBLE POSSIBLE"! Then for a similar movie it would be.. "The War of The Worlds".

This show was less gruesome and chaotic than War of the Worlds, it even had some funny parts here and there. lol. But most of the time we see Keanu Reeves, in his usual black and white formal wear + blazers Constantine look, walking around with that cold, expressionless and serious face. So cool neh! :P

Okay so basically the story is, as u might have guessed, aliens invading earth kinda show. But with a slight difference, the alien(yes 1 only), come to earth to negotiate(not really, more like ask a yes or no question, we arent in the position to negotiate), and depending on our answer, the outcome of our future. This show reminds me a lot about Noah's Ark and The Great Flood, im sure you heard of that, and i find this a very similar adaptation of that concept. It is even mentioned by someone during the show about the Ark. So yea, pretty much about that.

The twist of this show is, the alien came to protect Earth, from another alien race? No. It's to protect the Earth from us. :0

So for the first half of the show, you'll be wondering the true intention of the alien most of the time. And the twist would be revealed somewhere in the middle. From there, it's up to the leading female character, a Biologist, to change the decision of the alien and save the entire Human race from extinction.

Time to have lunch now! Laters!

Lulz.. I skipped school today, got a sms from bikai saying that SSAT class was canceled today, and when I thought of going to school just for 2 hours of Menon class.. what the hay. MEh.. if I was told earlier I would have slacked a little on my SSAT assignment, but whatever.. it's completed already, all that's left is the stupid documentation about my program.

I'm rather pleased and surprised with my program. It was done using Perl. Lulz, I think Perl is my best programming language now lol. Took me a whole afternoon to solo code out the program with 90% of the requirements done. Then sent it to some of my classmates. bikai was the most useless one, only know how to look at me doing the codes.... RIGHT BIKAI? :p

Mr adrain better give me an A++ for this assignment, or i'd kill him! lol..
It's so sad being in a class without ke jun, ying hao, carol, etc etc. So if I dont know how to do my assignments, then that most probably means no one else in my class does. =.=

Wonder if I can cope with the bio project module or not.. still dont really have a clear picture on what to do. If i cannot complete then how to help my other project mates.. :/

Oh well.. worry so much also no use. Just relax and leave it all in God's hands. :p

Oh and I re-watched Code Geass yesterday night on TV. Was so looking forward to it until an online friend told me that Singapore TV only allows at most PG to be shown on TV, since Code Geass has blood and nudity, wont it get cut?

I was like........... OH NO! WHAT THE HAY?! THEY CANT CUT IT! IT'LL SPOIL THE SHOW!
In the end, the first episode which airred on TV last night.. really got cut 3 seconds of blood spraying scene.. WHAT?! 3 seconds of blood which looks more like tomato sauce got CUT! Cmon, even kids these days watch porn and gore movies, whats a little 3 seconds of blood that looks like tomato sauce? =.=

Other than that I still enjoyed the show even though I've rewatched it several times already. :p
I wonder how they would CUT the episode with the massacre princess. Imagine from 30mins cut until 10 mins. LOL

Bummer.. Oh *looks outside window*. Today looks like a good day with good weather. Finally can go and hit the tracks and sweat tonight.

I can see improvements

After 3 days of rest since my first NAPFA test, I finally managed to drag myself out on a Sunday evening to run 2.4. I improved from 16mins to 14mins. I still remembered 2~3 weeks ago, my timing was a terrible 18mins. I need to get better! Must get 12mins!! Argh!! I need to learn proper breathing techniques.. I get out of breath and start to walk at the 5th round, my head hurts, my legs get numb.. damn! curse my low-blood pressure. :(

After that, i walked to the fitness corner to cool-down. Then I did pull-ups. Now, I can officially do 5 pull-ups without kicking. Thats a silver already! Woohoo! I still remembered 1 week ago, I could only do 2 pull-ups. Now can do 5! Wow. hard work do pay off.

Now my only obstacle and worry left is 2.4. If i can get a D for 2.4.. then i get Silver already. NO PTP! 2 MONTHS OF FREEDOM!!!! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!

Even though final retake of NAPFA is in Febuary.. I'll give myself 1 month. ONE MONTH AND I'LL FUCKING GET MY SILVER BEFORE MY 20th BIRTHDAY!! D:<

CHIKUSHOU!! I now already eat alot. But I still seem as skinny as ever. :(
And nobody seems to notice that I gained weight or something.. :/
DOUSHITE?!! Why would nobody notice me?! T-T

Feeling so tired now, tomorrow still need wake up early to meet mich to do project stuff.. =.= Gonna eat dinner now.. then later eat egg white for supper.. *cough* I'm suffering now, but I'll will persevere! Meh.. now feel very motivated after watching this very motivational & touching anime.

TENGEN TOPPA GURREN LAGANN!! Here's a short article about it: http://everything2.com/node/1933872
"Believe in yourself. Not you, who believes in me. Not me, who believes in you. Believe in you, who believes in yourself!" - Kamina

HUAT AH!!

Melancholic NAPFA Test

I failed my NAPFA test today just because of the stupid 2.4!! ARGH!! Damn fed-up! D:
If I passed my 2.4 then I get Bronze already! damn!

Good thing was the pull-ups, I thought I could only do 2 since the last time I did it on sunday, I could only do 2 pull-ups. So I didn't have really get my hopes high, and thought I could only do 2 today. But to my surprise, I could do 4 pull-ups, I think I still had some strength left to go for a 5. So I was quite happy after that and thought maybe I could pass NAPFA on my first try.

But oh well.. totally flung the 2.4km run. Run half-way, stomach very pain.. T-T

Felt very demoralized, well, I still am. Sigh.. never mind, I'll work hard and chiong on the way. Last NAPFA retake would be during Febuary. I can make it. I will make it. I must make it. I die also dont want go PTP. I want my 2 months of FREEDOM! RAH!!!!!!!

Meh.. now is one of those times I wish I had a girlfriend to lend me some emotional and *cough* physical *cough* support. D:

Grrr.... I want to take my current phail NAPFA certificate and tear it into shreds. Can't wait to replace it with at least a BRONZE cert when I have my 2nd try.

Today perl test was also terrible. Totally got owned. So many questions I got wrong for it.. MCQ somemore. Sigh... Feel so sad. Sometimes being single sucks man.. gotta handle and tank all the problems by myself or even if got happy things also enjoy myself only. No one to share with also.. Damn.. I feel so tired and I'm sick of everything. sobx sobx :'(

Suddenly felt this throbbing pain & tightness in my chest, or rather heart. This feeling, emptiness, heart-brokeness. I guess I'm love sick. Sigh... Then again I also swore never again to anyhow accept someone that I don't even love no matter how despo I am, even if all the girls die already and there's only gheys in this world(eww zomg!) or there's only buang ones left.

Now the world, got so many problems also.. Global warming la, economic crisis la.. and one more.. wa.. finding-GF crisis! No really, this is a very very serious problem that makes even global warming and the economic thingy seem minor.

(lol! Jian Lun and me were talking about it while chilling out one night waiting for midnight movie and it goes something like this)
JL said: You see.. all the chio ones 90% kena taken already. *smokes his cig*
Me: *nods head* Ya lor, even those chio ones still single also got 1 whole long queue of suitors ah!
JL: Ya CB, we cannot fight la. We sure lose. *smokes cig*
Me: *nods head* Ya lor.
JL: Don't talk about chio ones, even those decent-decent not-bad ones also kena taken liao. Those above average or average. *smokes cig*
Me: *shakes head* Ya lor. *sigh*
JL: NB, even some of those buang ones ALSO got people take. *smokes cig*
Me: *carries on shaking head while facing floor*
JL: Eh that one like not bad *looks at random girl walking past*
Me: *looks up* Orh.. that one not nice la, okay only.
*random girl goes in some leet car owned by a rich faggot*
Me: He got car like this but still get this kind of girl. Wa, we lose liao. No need to fight. No hope liao.
JL: *smokes cig*
Me: *facepalm*

I guess it's kinda hopeless, at the rate I'm going, I think I won't be able to get myself a girlfriend AND a serious relationship.. maybe even until after NS. Wow man, the thought of it totally sucks. :(

I guess I'm feeling MelancholicNostalgia.

I'll get stronger. I swear. So I'll be able to protect my girlfriend-to-be.. even though she may never come. I'll get stronger and I'll wait. I'll wait for my angel.. I'll wait till my time is up...

Gundam 00 Season 2

Okay.. I think I can turn this blog into an anime blog already.. lol! >.<

Oh yea, you can check out my interactive anime list on this site: http://myanimelist.net/animelist/Gilman
It's got sections on what I'm currently watching, completed watching, my ratings of the anime shows and stuff like that. You can arrange them in rating order, alphabetical order.. just play around with it. lol! So if you're ever feeling bored and have some spare time, go have a look on the list and pick one title up to watch, of cuz the higher the ratings the more recommended it is. Then again, my taste would be different from yours since I prefer more sadistic and emo shows, therefore a higher rating for those type of shows, except for Code Geass and some others since those are really given awards of best tv anime series. (and that I also happen to like them too) :X

Q4 of 2008 is a nice season to have as we see quite a number of interesting new animes on air from Japan.. Vampire Knight Guilty, Rosario + Vampire capu2, Skip Beat, Toradora, Jigoku Shoujo season 3... But the most hyped up of all, is of cuz, Gundam 00 Season 2! w00tz! xD


This time, they did the right thing. They went straight into the action and had a well-paced flow of the story, as opposed to their earlier season 1. And boy did they deliver! It was beyond expectations and since the first episode was aired, we all know it's gonna stay good & intense all the way till the end and it's final conclusion. So far, 3 episodes have already aired and the 4th epi being airred today(gonna watch it as soon as the subtitles are ready), it's sooo good that it's even better than Gundam Seed, probably the next thing to end the reign of Code Geass too.

The opening & ending themes for season 2 were a blast. They kept the rock genre and it really suit it perfectly. Now I think I got a character I like in Gundam 00, the grown-up main character, Setsuna! No more emo "Ore wa Gundam" freak. He's now a calm, serious and ready to take on the world, deceived by the evil A-Laws, using his twin drive Gundam 00 and finish what he started.

So the story was left off from the final battle of season 1 between the Celestial Beings(good guys) and United Nations forces(manipulated by some evil dude) where both sides suffered heavy casualties. Celestial Beings was being forced into hiding to recover while the UN forces went under the new name of A-Laws being controlled by one evil dude. 4 years later, Celestial Beings finally made a come back, and the story continues from there!

Apart from the story, I also love how Sunrise studios take pride in doing their animations, it's really top-notch and in beautifully rendered high-definition graphics. :D

I wonder how they would continue the story of Gundam 00 though, 3 episodes and it's already so intense.. hope they can keep the intensity up till the end. There's like.. 22 more episodes? lol. Oh well, we'll see how it goes. Celestial Beings huat ah! A-Laws FTL!

Here's the first opening and ending themes of Gundam 00 S2. Not in good quality but still.. Enjoy! :P

Code Geass R2 Final Episode

zfomfgfomgomfwtfbbq!

The ending so sad la! Si bei dramatic! T-T

lol Code Geass is officially my favourite anime! I'll buy the DVDs if they are sold in Singapore. lol!

So all is well, ends well. Well, not really, since after watching the final episode, it kinda lives on. lol. There was a magic to the ending and well... it's now a hot topic in many forums worldwide! The debate on the main character, the Byronic protagonist, the genius mastermind of the Zero Requiem... and yes, it's none other than Lelouch!

Spoilers below. Don't read and skip this part if you intend to watch Code Geass. lol

So.. in the final episode, Lelouch won the final battle against the world, and dominates/rules/terrorizes the world with an iron fist, making the whole world hate him, but there's nothing anyone could do, he's the emperor of the world, the military is totally under his command. After 2 months, he carries out the final phase of his plan, The Zero Requiem. There was an execution parade of the captured Black Knight leaders on the streets of Japan, it was being broadcasted live, and the whole world was watching....

Here's the catch. It wasn't the execution of the rebels, but Lelouch. :O
Yes, in order of the Zero Requiem plan to be complete, Lelouch must die. So yea, he did die, a dramatic death too. lol. And so the world's demon king was dead, and everyone was given freedom, and a better tomorrow. Everyone rejoiced, and Lelouch's name is forever tainted and hated by the world. Only a few people knew the truth and original reason for his death & demise, namely Kallen, Suzaku, Orange-kun, C.C, and Nunally.

That was his wish, and his plan. For everyone to have a "tomorrow", he made the whole world direct their hate towards one person. He bared all the hatred and sins, and died for the world. Just simply "Wow!"

Now here's another catch. After the show ended, everyone was like.. HEY, maybe he's still alive! There were several contradictions within the final episode and now there's a heated discussion in forums worldwide on whether Lelouch is still alive or really dead. Okay yea, we did see the scene where Lelouch apparently "died", but hey, many of the characters that were supposed to be dead, survived somehow. And nobody knows for sure if Lelouch really is dead.

So this is the magic of the show. There were many theories on how Lelouch might be still alive. Oh well, it's for the audience's imagination on whether Lelouch lives or not. I believe he still lives though and is travelling the world with C.C. Two lovely immortals. :)

Oh well, I do hope there's an OVA for Code Geass though.

As for Lelouch, he will always remain in our memories for his great deeds & sacrifice, for those who know the truth and reasons behind his plan, or rather, his wish. Love always.

Gundam 00

Today I went out for a walk, from Admiralty to my house. It was wonderful, the trees were so green, the breeze was just right. So peaceful. Meh, I have to do this more often. Lol!

So while waiting for Code Geass final episodes, I watched Gundam 00, the latest of the Gundam series. Here's what I thought of it.

Was a bit disappointed because it's not a prequel/sequel to my all-time favourite Gundam series; Gundam Seed/SD. They always do that. All the Gundam series are not linked at all, it's a totally different story in a totally different era/environment. Lol. So what's Gundam 00 about? In the year 2300~, we ran out of natural resources, so what do we use? Solar energy.

Okay, that's not the point. The starting of the story led to more disappointments. It's like Code Geass, "oh we are this so-and-so organization, and we will eradicate WAR!". Yea, great, like that never gets old. I'm actually fine with that but in Gundam 00, it lacked the "substance" that Code Geass has. And the technology they had in Gundam 00 was bullshiet compared to Gundam Seed.

It wasn't deep enough and to be honest, it was dull and boring. There wasn't any male character which I could "connect" with or like either(the guys in Gundam 00 are weird, lol), unlike in Gundam Seed or Code Geass where I simply adore Kira Yamato and Lelouch. The only thing that kept me watching was the awesome animation that SUNRISE studios has done and that Gundam 00 is the first ever Gundam series to ever support the HD function. Okay, and maybe that hawt goddess-grade girl in her cheongsam I saw during the first episode. I wanted to know what will happen to her. LOL!

So yea, I struggled and pulled myself to watch through Gundam 00 for the first 10 episodes or so, THEN, I don't know how they pulled it off, but the story plot for Gundam 00 took a huge turn and it actually began to become interesting enough for me to go back for more. The story gets deeper, and there was a TWIST, and there were more secrets revealed, plus more action. Woo, it can't get better than this.

Near the end of the series, it was quite sad(not going into details, so no spoilers). Some teary moments were during episode 19, 24 and 25. Waaaa, it was like so sweet but very saddening. Lol. Okay, towards the end it was a sadist show, quite a number of deaths. Oh and I like sadist shows. LOL! especially those where there are, "I will change the world with this power/special ability of mine! If I can't then I'll destroy this world together with me! Bwahahaha!" kinda thing. *sadistic laugh* And the story plot twisted again at the end.. guess what? There's gonna be a season 2! I'll be looking forward to this one. This season only revealed the meaning of "Gundam" behind the title Gundam 00, there was a sneak preview at the end of the final episode about "00", so we'll learn more about that in the 2nd season. :)

I was kind of surprised that they changed the usual Gundam themes, the opening and ending themes are usually "techno" kinda songs, but in Gundam 00, it was all ROCK songs. All of them were awesome, first opening theme was from L'Arc~en~Ciel, the ending themes were very nice too. But I liked the 2nd opening the most, the song and animation totally matched. The lyrics rocks too.

Overall, it was a quite a good show despite the bad start.
Here's the 2nd opening theme of Gundam 00, "Ash like Snow" by The Brilliant Green

Emperor Lelouch!

Zomg! Code Geass is reaching is final conclusion soon! A bit sad that season 2 is most probably the last season of Code Geass. T-T I watched the latest episode 4 times already! Haha. Must re-watch to fully grasp the meaning. Season 1 link.

So what's happening now? Well, Lelouch and Suzaku decided to work together once more to create an ideal world that the both of them wanted from the very start after learning the truth (Episode 21 of season 2 revealed most of the hidden facts/plots from the very start and was concluded). Well, something big happened of cuz. *cough* *points at title* *cough* All hail Lelouch!! All hail Lelouch!! xP

Lol. You know what I think? Lelouch is kinda similar to Jesus, in a sense where he shoulders all the burdens and sins of the world & people, even if he has to be the enemy of the entire world, in order to make the world a better place. But yes, only in that aspect. However, I won't deny the fact that he's a sadist, with good intentions. :P

Here's some quotes from R2 episode 22 :
Lelouch said to Suzaku, "This is only the beginning, still. I will create more rivers of blood, enough to obscure even the name of the massacre princess and erase it from people's memories. We have lost.. lost far too many things. But even so, to embrace for tomorrow, we need to conquer the world first."

There was a stir in my heart when he said that. The voice actor of Lelouch was really superb! Well, he really is, since I saw somewhere that he won the best voice actor award in 2007 or something for his role as Lelouch. Yes, watch the Japanese dub with English subtitles. Don't watch the English dub, it's total crap, the English voice actor fails.

"Farewell.. Lelouch" *walks away* "Farewell.. Kallen", whispered Lelouch.

And the quote above is when Lelouch and Kallen were alone and she confesses her love to him, or so it seemed. But Lelouch never said a word, so Kallen just said goodbye and left. After she left, he whispered farewell. Like WTF MAN, if I were Lelouch, I'll grab her hand, pull her back and hug her. But.. meh.. I understand, he didn't want to involve her, especially after the incident where another girl who loved him got murdered. HE FACES & FIGHTS THE WORLD ALONE MAN. *Salutes* Well.. okay, not really alone but.. without love I guess. xD

*In an important conference meeting of the world's leaders*
Lelouch asked, "Chairwoman Kaguya, may I pose one question to you? What determines the right to govern the world?"
"Pride and honor", replied the chairwoman.
"Very well answered, you are a gifted person after all. However, I have a different answer."
"May we hear it?", asked the puzzled chairwoman.
"The preparedness to destroy. To destroy the world and ourselves" *Lelouch points up with a smirk*

And BOOM, you know what happens. ;) I smell sarcasm & mockery when Lelouch replied, "you are a gifted person" Rofl! Meh.. Lelouch is a very intelligent and proud character, a Byronic protagonist no doubt. That's what I like about him. He gets nominated as my favorite anime character of the year! :P

At the end of episode 22, it was revealed that someone very close to Lelouch who was thought to be dead is actually still alive! o.o

Meh.. I can't wait for episode 23 to be aired next week in Japan! Zomg! Sep 14th! ._.
3 more episodes, wonder how it'll all end. Will he be together with C.C or Kallen? Or will he be alone in the end? Rofl! Will he dominate the whole world? Or will he die in the end?.. *hopes there's season 3. please dont let the story end. :x*

Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion!

Hello! :P So long no update cuz I've been busy keeping myself immersed in this anime "Code Geass"! This.. I tell you.. is the BEST ANIME I've ever watched so far! Beats da crap outta Claymore, Gundam, Bleach, Elfen Lied, Death Note, blah blah, etc etc and so on. Well, at least that's what I thought IMHO.

Here's link to watch it online stream: http://www.animecrazy.net/category/completed-anime-shows/code-geass/

This anime has a very.. wah, very hard to explain, you must watch to understand! xD

All I can say is that it's a very complicated show. While watching it, you have this mental battle to pause the show to think about everything or continue watching it because of the suspense! The story, plot, twists and everything is so intriguing! Okay, to put it simple, it's basically something like Death Note + Gundam Seed. Simply awesome. You can hardly predict what's going to happen next. The suspense is killing me. No words can describe how much I'm enjoying the show right now.

Ah yes, the art! That's another plus. The way it's animated is also very very beautiful. It's an eyecandy to look at. Meh.. I love the main character, Lelouch, he's so.. sadist like me! Bwahahaha! :x

Currently, I've watched till halfway of Code Geass season 2 (ending of season 1 was epic! o.o). There's this girl who loves Lelouch so much, even though he's the "bad guy". Apparently her memories got altered twice and a lot a lot of things happen during the series which makes it very hard for her to accept Lelouch because of..(no spoilers intended), but in the end when she regained all of her memories, she still fell in love with him again and.. (meh, that's like so effing sweet la) in the end she *ahem*.. got murdered by this bastard named R***! Then then...!

Okay, Ima stop my rants here. =.=
GRRR!! How can this happen man?! Sadded. Oh well, you'll have to watch it to understand what I meant. I think MX will understand since he already watched it. Haha! xD

Anyhow, it's a MUST-WATCH! It's one psychological film you can't miss!

Bummer.. I couldn't find any nice trailers of Code Geass on youtube. But meh, found this little tribute(or rather, AMV) of the girl and Lelouch. Sobx. T-T

Farewell KPMG!

Okay, I shall start from last Friday, August 15th, which was the last day of my attachment in KPMG! We (Leslie and friends) intended to take pictures of the company, office and people there, but in the end we all backed out in a hurry. Lol!

So yea, we all went there happily for our last day, so excited and all. Oh, and we had lunch at a Vietnamese restaurant. 1 chicken soup noodle was like almost 10 bucks! Nothing special. Not worth my money! T-T But okay la, it's still quite a big bowl.

So yea, after lunch, we came back office and prepared to leave. We thanked both OICs and apologized for our incompetence (okay, too strong of a word but similar to that xD). Fortunately, Mr.VG was quite forgiving in the end and all ended well. So Leslie and MX went to say goodbye to their java side, while Heechai and me went to say goodbye and thanked our 2 supervisors. Wah, I tell you, after we did that, we were like feeling kinda sad about leaving the office. So after that, we quickly grabbed our stuff, and together with Leslie and MX, fled the office. On our way to the office doors we just walked past quickly and said goodbye to those who were bidding us farewell. I stole a last glance at my "angel" before chionging out. I didn't say goodbye to her, she didn't as well. And it might as well be good to just end it this way.

Lol. If we stayed any longer, I'm afraid we might cry. Rofl! So we proceeded to do our clearance at ITS (IT Support Department). And guess who we saw there? The chio bu from HR called Kimberly! W00tz! There to see us and complete our clearance. (Like sending us off to our final journey) Haha. All went well, except I had to photocopy some forms of mine. I didn't know how to use the photocopy machine after 3 months of working in KPMG! LOL! Cuz it looks kinda complicated but it's actually quite easy after I knew how. So yea, MX helped me with one, and I did the rest myself.

Then after we are all done we left the building! Leslie and Heechai were like so happy that they saw Kimberly for the last time lor. Lol! Okay la, I was happy too, but it would be better if it was my "angel". Oh well, so after we left the building, we talked crap to lighten our moods.

For me, I was feeling the exact similar feelings I felt back when I was in Beijing, that very same morning where I left for the airport to go back to Singapore. Yea, it was that kind of feeling. On my way to the MRT, I looked back at the building I worked in, looked up into the sky and saw the skyscrapers towering above me. Even though my 3 months in KPMG was not really that superb, but I still felt attached to it after 3 months of life there. Haha, I was thinking, oh, next monday morning and I wake up. Would I dress up in my formal outfit and go to work subconsciously without knowing it? Rofl! But luckily, that did not happen. xD

Here's something that Ms.Yarny wrote to me that made me leave KPMG more towards the happy side.

[15:07] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: hi there
[15:07] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: what's the joy abt
[15:07] Gilman : presentation over
[15:07] Gilman : im free tomorrow
[15:07] Gilman : >.<
[15:14] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: :)
[15:17] Gilman : going to miss the cute lady here
[15:18] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: well....
[15:18] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: well....
[15:18] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: umm....
[15:18] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: umm...
[15:18] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: the path u r walking now.. u see one beautiful & cute flower on the side..
[15:19] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: but u hv to move on.. but u will hv chance to see more beautiful & cute flowers along the way.. u might even hv the opportunity to pluck one of them...
[15:19] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: some of the beauty of the flowers need no eye to see but ur heart to appreciate...
[15:19] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: so MOVE ON ....
[15:19] Ms. [c=20]Yarny[/c]: (F) (F) (F)
[15:20] Gilman : oh wow!
[15:20] Gilman : thanks ms yarny

So yea, thanks Ms.Yarny! It was really inspirational. :D

As for my "angel", "Sorry, my beautiful & cute flower, it's been nice admiring you. You have made my days more beautiful during this path. However, it's time for me to move on with my journey. Farewell."

Wa.... It's just surreal, so much has happened this year. From end of year 2, to FYPJ in school lab, to Beijing for 2 months (woah), then back to Singapore KPMG for 3 months! I have really learned a lot. So much more than I could have ever learned. For that, I'm grateful. All that has come to an end, now it's my well-deserved break.
Here are some preview from my life in KPMG!

Outside office, at the 31st floor lobby.
1st floor of main lobby! 2 statues :p
This is the basketball court of the Children's home during Make A Difference Day event.
This is the isolation room for naughty kids which Heechai,
Li zi and me was assigned to re-paint.
The Children's home.

Painted 1st layer of the room.
Painted final layer of the room. Yes, light green.
This little boy and me playing basketball. Look at his
face expression! Haha!
At Girls' and Women's Home. Painting banner competition.
That red-circled girl was the "angel" i was talking about.
A closer back-view of her.
Smiley faces from "Ghost in the Shell" anime.
(okay, it's for censoring faces)
I wish to put up more but meh. There's too many! :P I'll
take a break here, and update my blog soon enough!
Laters. :)

Insomnia and weird dreams?

Waaa... I'm so tired. Yesterday night went home to chill. Played a bit of Drift City(online racing game), vroom vroom! *Sigh* There's no good MMORPGs available to play currently, it's depressing. Oh well, at least I still enjoyed some fast drifting cars.. virtually that is. Anyone wanna play with me Drift City? :D

Then I went to bed at around 11+, I told myself I have to sleep early, I needed my beauty sleep.. My eye bags are getting more & more horrible. I still remember when I was younger, I can sleep at 4, 5AM like that and still feel energetic. I think I'm old now.. Lol! Does that mean time is running out for me? Meh.. I need a girlfriend.. and FAST! Dx

Anyway, I went to bed at around 11+ and I couldn't sleep. I kept flipping on my bed for a very long time but I was still awake. I took a look at the time at it was almost 1AM. Wtfux? I think my insomnia might be coming back. Then I prayed to God to let me sleep, and soon I was asleep. Horray!

But then I didn't slept well last night. I remembered that not long after I was asleep, I began dreaming. Lol. And no, I seldom have dreams in my sleep. It was weird. I can barely remember what happened.. BUT I can vividly remember it was something about 2 pairs of couples. I was one of the guys. There were some weird weird obstacles and the 2 group of couples had some interaction in the process(not dirty ones mind you). In the end, both pair of couples made it. BUT, they switched partners! My girl went and walked away with the other guy and the other girl came to me, holding my hand. (appears that during the event they had a change of hearts) But it felt like I really liked this other girl too and was happy. (Eh, both girls quite chio wor! 1 ish sexay type, 1 ish JF type. The JF type came to me :3 Just that I can't remember their faces! Sadded)

THEN I woke up! Lol. I was like, "wtfux was that?" *facepalm* So what the hell was that dream supposed to mean?! .__.

Feeling kinda moody and very tired today. Forced myself to come to work. I feel like sleeping again. Maybe I can have a more pleasant dream this time? Perhaps...

Hanging on to what little hope there is..

What day is it today again? Oh yes, it's Monday. The first day of the last week of attachment! Horray! I was so looking forward to it.

But why do I still feel a little hesitant on leaving?..

*Sigh* I feel empty somehow, like a part of me is missing and I can't call it back, not until it finds what it wants. It's searching for something, I know it is, but it doesn't seem to know where it's heading or what it's searching for. *Confused*

I don't want to think anymore for today. It's taking a toll on me. Mentally and physically.. I'm tired and I wish there was....

"Happy" National Day to Singapore!

Yep. Singapore turns 43 today! Um.. I meant yesterday *looks at time*. Oh and yay, Beijing Olympic 2008. Lol. What's with all that hype.. jeez. It irks me, seriously. It's just Beijing, I've been there, saw it, and came back. Woohoo! *insert sarcasm*

Okay, back to the topic. Today felt just like any other Saturday. I didn't feel like going out, although there were activities and events lined up for me. But Saturdays were strictly my rest day from the tiring weekdays. Rah! TIRED!

So yea, I rejected ALL offers and just lazed around at home as usual, doing almost nothing the whole day except ponder in deep thoughts. Yes. I have a lot to think about recently. It's disturbing me.

It's days like these when I'm not occupied with stuff to do that I tend to think a lot. Many random thoughts.. pondering about the meaning of love and life. Sweet Nostalgia. Meh.. I don't even know where to begin. It's just so complicated. *Sigh* I wish I was still young like my brother, so innocent, oblivious to this cruel world and it's surroundings and simple-minded. Argh! *facepalm*

Right.. I still have my IPP report to do. Tomorrow it shall be done, hopefully. >.>
Oh and congrats to Ying Hao, my classmate, on becoming attached with his beloved. *envy*
I wonder when my turn will come. *Sigh* To be honest, I'm scared.. afraid.. and so alone, like falling deep into this never-ending pit, no one to stop my fall or pull me out. God, someone save me. Sometimes I just wish... I had a beautiful and understanding female companion, to share my happiness and burdens with. Nothing else would matter then. Nothing wrong with dreaming yea? Right. I'll keep on dreaming and hope for that day. I will. .____.

"There is melancholy in the wind.. and sorrow in the grass" - Charles Kuralt

I stumbled upon this quote and fell in love with it that instance. It's beautiful. Don't ya think so? (Alright, you'd probably think I'm a saddist right now. Lol)

"Until time and times pass away..."

And this second quote is from the story of "The Druid Knight". I just finished reading it, kept my boredom in check for a while. Not bad IMO.

I placed both those 2 melancholic quotes into my blog banner, if you haven't noticed them yet... And the background image is from the anime that I just finished watching recently. It's called Elfen Lied. I've heard a lot about how good it was before I watched it so I decided I can't miss it too. Lol. Solid story in 13 episodes.

It was unlike anything I've seen before, kinda reminds me of "The Dark Knight", surreal. Lol. Elfen Lied is a relatively bloody, gory and sadistic anime (some nudity included) but don't let that put/fool you off. It actually tells and shows you so much about love, compassion, social alienation, identity, animal cruelty, revenge, child abuse, jealousy and the value of humanity. It really sets you thinking like, "Wow.. and here I am, sitting down in my chair? What exactly am I doing?!" Haha, just an example. And the ending of Elfen Lied.. was just.. touching. Well, all I can say is that it left me speechless, made my heart ‹/3 and thinking again. I cried at.. episode 12/13. *no spoilers revealed* :P

Elfen Lied Trailer

"ADV Films said the series was one of their bestselling and "most notorious" releases of 2005." - quoted from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Elfen_Lied.

So that concludes my blog post. I have a feeling I wrote too much. And to whoever who may have stumbled upon my blog might have already given up reading my chunk of rants.. er.. I meant words! Haha! Be sure to leave a note/tag me if you read this. It'll cheer me up, serious! :P

Phew.. definitely felt better after writing. Until time and times pass away...

Wait. "Time and times pass away" might be a little too long till my next post. I'll leave it at.. Till next time! :D

Woohoo!

Rah! I see so many people writing blogs, I'm tempted to make one myself. Ha! Although I know it won't last long due to my short attention span, but heck, it'll take away some of my boredom (and burdens). I doubt anyone would read my crap anyway. So yea, here comes my rants and what not. >:D

Unleash thy inner-self!